I've been trying to keep busy today. Its only lunch time now, but I've found that giving myself little lists of things to complete during the day really helps. So far I've been down to the health centre, painted my finger and toe nails and sat outside on the bench with some tea and read a little bit. I'm going into Clydebank soon to pick up some storage boxes so I can make a start on sorting out my bedroom.
My friend came over yesterday. She brought spaghetti hoops and helped me look for classes on the internet. There's a yoga class on a Wednesday morning that I'm thinking of going to (starting next week of course). We went for a little walk, then later my boy took me to the cinema and we had a couple of sundaes.
I got a really lovely email this morning from a guy I used to work with. I wanted to share it because I feel like it's something thats relevant and that I should look back on when I feel low to try and push me forward.
Reading your email doesnt sound like the LJ I once knew and loved. When I worked with you, you knew what you wanted, you knew where you wanted to go in life, with camera work or writing books and baking cakes. You were a girl that wanted it! When I worked with you, you wanted supervisor and you finally got it. Cause I had it! Now get your finger out the clouds, forget whats happened and forget who put you down and go for the future.
Sometimes Mark really has his breakthroughs. It really made me feel a lot better. So it's time to stand up, dust off and just do it. And remember that it's okay to feel scared and overwhelmed and get down. Just not to stay down.
Star people do not shed tears, but light.
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