Shakes

My body can't seem to stop trembling today. So far I haven't had any attacks of panic or sad, thats always a good thing.

We had thunder and lightening this morning. I'd already gotten up by this point but I decided to go back into my duvet and hide for a while. 

I've been thinking a lot about things today. How if I want things to change I need to help myself. Similarly, I need to ask for help when I feel like I need it instead of expecting everyone just to know. 

So I've thought up a list of things I can do to help myself. Things I've wanted to do but just haven't, and things I enjoy doing but don't do enough of.

1 - Take an art class. I've wanted to for ages but I can't seem to find one in my area. Logically there has to be so I'm gonna try and look harder

2 - Start going back to yoga. I used to go before and then my work schedule made it nearly impossible. I'm going to start making more of an effort now that my hours have completely changed (although I'm not at work right now anyway - who knows how long that'll last though)

3 - Change my job. Which is something I've wanted for so long but I got comfy. I want to start my own business, but I'm thinking that when I'm feeling a little fragile I should work up to that. So in the meantime, I'm gonna look for something else, something that doesn't stress me out so much. Or at least causes me worthwhile stress. This is something I should go back and examine because my job is one of the main factors in my endless cycle of panic. But thats for another time.

4 - Go walking more. I think being out the house even for half an hour a day really helps me to clear my head. I always feel a bit more in control after I've been for a walk.

5 - Volunteer somewhere. I always wanted to work with animals but I never got the grades to be a vet (to be honest, it wasn't and still isn't my life dream). I do love animals though, and I think getting to be around them on a semi frequent basis might be quite uplifting.

That's what I've come up with so far. Wish me luck, gonna try and make all of these happen.